What To Do, What To Do...

I'm a freshman at Boston University and the year is almost up. The first semester for me was awful: I had such close friends from my high school that I missed all of them so much. I live about 6 hours south of the school, so I really missed my family. In high school I thought I had to get away and experience something "different," and in my high school there was a lot of unwritten pressure to go to a good school, even though there BU was considered average.
The second semester has been a lot better. I have friends (not close with them like I am with friends back home), and I like the classes and the campus isn't too bad. I have been thinking and praying about whether or not to transfer somewhere closer to home, and I've been so stressed over it. First semester I was really depressed, and I thought I was pretty much over it, but then today my dad was driving me to the train station after being home for the weekend and I started sobbing.
I know there are great advantages here and I think I can graduate a year early if I stay here, but I don't know if it's worth it. I'm not miserable, so I don't understand why I miss home so much. So many people here are from the other side of the US or from other countries all together, so I feel like 1) I shouldn't complain, and 2) something is wrong with me because I find it hard to live away from where I grew up. I might feel like a failure if I transfer, so I feel like I should suck it up. First semester was so terrible that I don't want to do it all again.
Any advice would be appreciated. I just want the semester to be over and to have my answers.
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18-21, F
Apr 22, 2012