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Lost In College

Hi. I am a freshman in her first semester of college at a well known university in Boston. Last year, I graduated High School among the top ten in my class. I was excited (and a bit frightened) and thought I was well prepared for this next big step in my life. I imagined college to be what people have said it to be: "The best years of your life" But the first semester has been anything but that. First off, I began having thoughts about changing my major chem engineering. I couldn't see myself working in a plant, doing in depth research, and honestly, I was also afraid of the workload. Finding another major to go into was stressing cause I was worried about job prospects and whether I would enjoy/excel in it. This has gotten to the point where I am having depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. Nowadays I just feel so worthless, thinking that everyone is smarter and better than me. I don't even know if i belong in this school anymore. It pains me that i'm wasting my parents hard earn money over this. I feel like I'm not emotionally ready for college, and i'm not sure what to do. I've been contemplating transferring back to my state college in NH or going to a community college to try different things out. I know that this might be running away from my problems, but I'm afraid I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon.
Any advice would be appreciate. Thanks
Greywrld Greywrld 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 18, 2012

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This society turns everything into a stress fest. It has to be one of the most high stress, freaked out societies in history. Don't get sucked into it. Enjoy your life. Don't take college too seriously; although try to get decent grades.

Weird...I am also in MA, considering of transferring back to my state school in NH. I hate it here. I hate college.

Hi. Thanks for the reply. Not to be a creep or anything, but what school do you go to? Are you considering UNH or the other schools?

College sucks. I know because I've been there. I was a 6th year senior at a local university, and I did the changing majors thing a couple of times. Don't stress over the idea of changing majors. You're only a freshman, and you have your whole college experience ahead of you. My advise? Talk to people. Talk to professors and advisers and take a trip to your career office on campus. There are plenty of things to choose from, and you don't have to be in a specialized trade. I have an English degree and I work in an office. I chose English because it seemed to suit me. You have lots of time to figure out just what to do. Above all, think about what you want. Good luck.

I have actually visited the career adviser's office a couple times, because I didn't know what to do. She did point me in the direction of some other majors, but I don't know if I have interest in them. I also got in contact with a couple of professors from the majors the advisor told me to check out. I think that my biggest problem is the lack of belief in myself. I find ways to tell myself that this job or that is too hard for me. I don't know what is happening to me, because throughout high school, I believed that everything can be done with hard work. Now, I'm trying to switch out because I think I don't have what it takes to be an engineer.

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I hate it, too.But go on,there's no option for us.

If it's any consolation, I haven't even made it to college and I'm stressed out about it.
I'm sure a lot of people are in the same boat as you regarding their majors and potential careers that lie ahead, so you're definitely not alone in this.
If you honestly don't feel emotionally ready for college at this point, it's quite feasible to take a year off from school to stay home, experiment with a small job, and look into what you're truly passionate about.
From there, you can always transfer to a college and be back on track.
Best of luck.

Thank you,but my parents won't understand me.If I drop out for one term to figure out my problem,my parents will think I'm wasting time.This's life.Anyway,I have to go on with my schoolwork.Thank again for your nice advice.

You're putting too much pressure on yourself. My advice, is to go to community college first as you'll probably get full scholarships for being the top of your class in High School and there's less pressure to declare a major. You can take your time and try out a lot of different options and discover yourself a bit. The professors are usually more forgiving and less stressed at community colleges too, so they'll be more willing to help you through things and I find the transfer counselors to be more of a help at community as well. You'll be going through the same generic remedial courses for the first two years at a smaller institution, but you'll be more likely to make friends and get adjusted to college life.

Basically, you're going through what they call the "freshman haze" and it's a new overwhelming experience having all this freedom at your grip for the first time.