Lost In CollegeHi. I am a freshman in her first semester of college at a well known university in Boston. Last year, I graduated High School among the top ten in my class. I was excited (and a bit frightened) and thought I was well prepared for this next big step in my life. I imagined college to be what people have said it to be: "The best years of your life" But the first semester has been anything but that. First off, I began having thoughts about changing my major chem engineering. I couldn't see myself working in a plant, doing in depth research, and honestly, I was also afraid of the workload. Finding another major to go into was stressing cause I was worried about job prospects and whether I would enjoy/excel in it. This has gotten to the point where I am having depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. Nowadays I just feel so worthless, thinking that everyone is smarter and better than me. I don't even know if i belong in this school anymore. It pains me that i'm wasting my parents hard earn money over this. I feel like I'm not emotionally ready for college, and i'm not sure what to do. I've been contemplating transferring back to my state college in NH or going to a community college to try different things out. I know that this might be running away from my problems, but I'm afraid I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon.
Any advice would be appreciate. Thanks
Greywrld 18-21, F 8 Responses 10 Nov 18, 2012