Where Am I?
I miss my old self so much.
I miss the way you used to be the most optimistic person in my life. If it was raining outside, you'd smile and say, "I love the water." If it was snowing outside, you'd smile and say, "It's so beautiful the way the snow seems to sparkle." It wasn't just the weather either. If you had a bad day at work, you'd come home and say, "Well, that's over with for today, and I have a job to pay the bills and a roof over my head."
I miss the way you used to enjoy getting up for the day because there were so many wonderful things to look forward to. Yeah, there were dishes to wash, but you always knew you were blessed with the ability to cook a good meal. Yeah, there was laundry to do, but you always knew you were blessed with the money to have clothes to wear.
I miss the way you used to fall sound asleep at night because the day was so fulfilling and meaningful. Sure the day was busy, but it was worth it.
I miss the sound of your laughter and how you could laugh at anything because you were grateful for what you had. Aspiring for more made you happy because you enjoyed a good challenge. If something seemed to be in your way, you'd find a way to get through it. If something was tough, you would feel powerful after conquering it.
I miss the way you used to be grateful for even the tiniest thing that would seem insignificant to most people. The smell of a candle that you lit would make you smile just for the simple fact that it smelled good. The cheap futon you bought would make you smile when you sat on it just for the simple fact that it was soft.
You would never complain that it was too hot or too cold because you would turn on the fan or curl up in a blanket.
I miss my old self so much, and how I used to be...