I Can't Stand My College
I'm a college freshman, and its been a month since I moved in. In the beginning I had high expectations. I knew it would be hard, but I thought I could handle it. I went around to peoples rooms and introduced myself (im a really shy person, so I usually don't do that) and I was feeling pretty good that I was now in college. As the days went on, nobody came to introduce themselves to me. I thought since I got the ball rolling, people would like to come talk to me. That was a lie.
Now, a month into college, I can't stand it here. I miss my family so much, and I just want to be able to go home. I'm not a party person and I don't drink so its a little hard finding friends who agree with me. I've joined a couple clubs but their really intense about what their doing. I thought it was gonna be more about having fun and getting to know people, but its not like that at all. I go to class everyday and I try to pay attention, but I hate it here so much that I'm just not motivated to work hard in my classes. I'm doing good so far, but as the weeks go on, I'm afraid that I might start failing classes, and then my parents will kill me. People tell me all the time that college is the best years of you life. I feel like im letting them down in a way because I can't stand it here. My friends who have gone away to college absolutely love it. I feel so jealous of them because thats not what is happening to me at all. People also tell me that I'll finally get away from my parents. I never saw college as "getting away" from my parents. I love my parents and love to spend time with them. I think I made the wrong choice of moving away. My plan is that second semester I'm gonna transfer to my community college back home. I know thats not the ideal plan, but it will get me with my family again, and it will cost so much less. I might also finally figure out what it is I want to do with my life. I hope the next 2 and a half months go by quick. I just want this experience to be over. That is so pathetic, but its true.