I Hate Me

I am a 27 year old male and have been slowly hateing myself more and more each day. I was always a heavy set guy, 6'4" 270 lbs or so, and have had the so called "man boobs" for as long as I can remember. I don't know what to do anymore. I have tried dieting but, thanks to a thyroid issue, I have a very hard time losing fat. I am the guy that when going to the beach or suntanning with friends will never remove my shirt. I have a hard time doing that while by myself. I feel inadequate as well and can't figure out why.
I have been called down by women in every stage of my life so I find myself despising them more and more. I find myself getting angry with women I don't even know and painting them with the "*****" brush right away. I have had girlfriends in the past, but the relationships haven't lasted. I assume this is because of me.
I hate the state of the world and the fact that attractive people get the most attention and that people like police officers and military personnel don't make as much as they should. Hockey players and football players get paid ridiculous amounts of money, and paramedics and health care workers don't get anything.
I don't know what else to say here. I think I have given a pretty good summary of what is going on with myself.
msaanum msaanum
26-30, M
May 25, 2012