It's just so hard to explain. Being brought down by your own family in different ways. I just want EP to be one of my outlets. I don't care if no one replies to this. Just getting out the words is making me feel better. But telling my friends? They wouldn't understand. And when I did tell a close friend, she didn't get how in depth it was. Didn't take me seriously, and just kind of gave supporting words. Family? Forget about it, to them abuse is nothing. I know other kids have worse lives but I'm not liking mine either. That's why I don't like my family's stupid culture. If I'm not religious and don't pray, I am doing bad.
But how can they be so hypocritical? They don't do all that. And if I don't want to pray, I won't pray. There's so many other things that are just messed up with the people I've been raised with. I wish I had been given a better life. I try every day to do better. And I hope it works out.
FunnyandNerdy FunnyandNerdy
18-21, F
Aug 19, 2014