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Feeling

Depression, cronic never ending pain,loneliness, feeling totally worthless and useless,etc.

Is it any wonder suicide looks better every day.
mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 10, 2011

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Yea. Depression hurts. Nothing helps.

i'm very sorry to see you feel that way...what would we do without you? we really need all the people we can get to fight ignorant people on ep, you know who i am referring to.

Gigglets your ideas are all well and good, however I do not have a drivers license and have not driven in 9years. I live on 4 acres in the country and the nearest SMALL town is over 5 miles away and the nearest city is over 30 miles away.<br />
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Now with my disabilities I cannot even walk down every aisle in a grocery store shopping so walking is out of the question.<br />
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Friends? When I got married my wife lived off lake michigan and I lived off lake erie, thats the width of the whole state of michigan apart. we bought a house in the middle as her ex is one way and my ex is the other. That puts my friends an hour and a half away by car.<br />
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My wife moved out over 4 months ago as has been talked about in other stories here.<br />
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Professional help? as stated above I am already on meds.<br />
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Now knowing all that do you still go along with those suggestions you gave me?

I agree with Giglets.

From the description of your environment. It sounds like you are surrounded by natural beauty. Even if you can only sit on your front stoop/porch. You can still relax and take in the simple joy of everything that is around you.

Life Sucks. But for me I find indignation is my best friend.<br />
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I absolutely refuse to give anyone the satisfactions to think they has beaten me. <br />
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I have no family left, (my son is the exception) and to be honest they were not all that great when they were alive. My life has been a continuous struggle that I have had to scratch and claw my way through. <br />
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One thing I have learned along the way is this. This world is full with true ugliness and yet true beauty at the same time. It can be so easy to lose sight of the beauty.

1. I am on meds for depression, pain, bp, and cholesterol<br />
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2. What loved ones?.

18 months ago I felt the same way and even attempted suicide. I am truly glad I failed because though my life has gone on somewhat of a tangent, I feel much happier. Medication and counselling have helped. Also the hurt caused to love ones is another point to consider.<br />
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I urge you to seek help because I consider suicide a permanent solution to a temporary problem.