I don't know why it's been happening the last few nights, but when it's time to hop into bed, my chest starts to hurt uncontrollably.

I do the best I can not to think of the past and any negative thoughts and I can't figure out why this is happening. I've been doing my best to stay positive for so so long and now, it just feels like the days I want to end it all. I feel like I want to just strangle myself. I mean, I'm not going to do something like that; I've made it this far with much worse on my heels.

But that's the thing, nothing negative has happened. I've been steady living, not much drama; family is slowly getting back together. I'm working out to find a way back into school. My last relationship ended almost a year ago. So why is it doing this to me now?

My chest is hurting and the only thoughts I have that seem to make the pain temporarily go away are the self harm ideology of removing myself as a whole from this society.

Blah, another long night is in store for me.
SFRosie SFRosie
26-30, M
1 Response Jan 18, 2016

A distraction often helps. Do you like to read. Get a good book, either fiction
or non fiction and read it till you're too tired and drift off to sleep. Check out your room. Is the temperature comfortable. Is the air dry. Maybe you can use a fan for the air circulation. It sounds like a panic attack to me. Don't try to sleep. The body has it's own mechanisms to control sleep. Just rest and focus on the best parts of a day. Things that you enjoy. After a while your body will do what comes natural and you'll fall asleep.