Sick of Food

my husband found out about my ED we talked after we both yelled and screamed at each other about what a stupid thing i'm doing. he gonna take me out 4 dinner 2 nite i'm so nervous now he knows he will watch me there will probaly not be a good chance 2 purge which makes nervous. the way i feel after i eat is terrible, i feel guilty like i need 2 get the food out of my body. i hope i can be strong enough 2 do it. i hate the fact i have 2 eat.

fatgurl09 fatgurl09
26-30, F
2 Responses Aug 13, 2009

Instead of purging you should try and eat less. Try eating 500 calories over 2 or 3 days. Just enough to maintain but not enough to gain weight. Then no one can harp at you for being bulimic. Plus it's easier on your esophagus and stomach lining. I feel for you. My husband likes big women & tries to get me to eat. I only eat because I have to in order to stay alive but food is nasty! Let me no how it turns out.

I'm so sorry my love =( It breaks my heart, I am a friend who will understand, come talk to me.