I Hate It Even More Now That I'm OlderMy parents are very strict. I was raised in a Christian household where the rod was never spared, and my parents made it clear to me when I returned home at 22 (I just turned 23) that I would still be spanked for misbehavior. At the time, I didn't worry about it -- I'm an adult now and much less likely to do stupid things that would get me spanked, plus I couldn't imagine it would be as scary as my spankings when I was younger. Boy was I wrong. The spankings I have had, both from Mom and Dad, since I moved home last year have been way worse than anything I got when I was younger. Since they expect more from me, I'm punished more severely when I mess up. And for a repeat mess up, like missing curfew or drinking, it is way worse. Also, since my siblings no longer live at home and it's just me, Mom and Dad, I often get spanked in the living room in front of both of them, which is embarrassing.
Tonight, I missed curfew and had a bit to drink. I hadn't even closed the door behind me when Dad took off his belt and told me to get my pants down. He put me over the back of the couch and whipped my bare bottom until I was yowling with pain. Mom just sat there in her chair, arms crossed, looking smug, like I was getting just what I deserved and like she enjoyed watching me get punished. I wanted to slap the satisfied look off of her face and now I'm going to struggle with being respectful to her, which is another reason I get spanked. When it was over, I couldn't even get my pants back up over my swollen bottom. I had to take them all the way off just so I could get to my room, sobbing and sniffling. It hurts so bad right now, and tomorrow is church which means sitting on hard pews and my dad will probably mention what I did to my pastor. I'm ashamed to get called in to see pastor, especially since he'll know that I was drinking and that I was spanked.
I'm laying here feeling sorry for myself and really and truly hating the fact that I still get spanked. Most of the time it seems a small price to pay to live here and have my parents support me through school, but right after a spanking, I would agree to be homeless in order to avoid another one. It hurts so bad I can't sleep. I'm on my tummy, using my laptop.