Why I Hate God.

I'm 15 years old and I'm turning 16 in April. I have followed god my whole life and never questioned christianity and always did what I was told. How did he reward me? Gave me a crappy dad who cheated on my mom and leaves her so poor I cant even afford a cell phone or Christmas presents and I don't eat lunch at school to save money. I know I might sound greedy but it **** me the **** off! I Do good things I help people,Be kind to others,and stand up to people being bullied Ive never gotten in major trouble I have a clean record.

Oh I'm not done yet oh no. Instead of making me poor as hell the bastard also gave me clinical depression. Yep I have 7 out of 10 on depression scale getting near an 8 now. I still cut my self its the only thing that helps me majorly. I've even had thoughts of suicide! I have a therapist that cost me 100 dollars an hour making us even more poor. I had to raise my *** my whole childhood I had no dad and my mom was busy working. And besides that I have ****** friends who never invite me to do anything.Yep... Life great,if god ******* loves you.

Ps. Sorry if this is mediocre its my first post,
Cdc1893 Cdc1893
18-21, M
Dec 13, 2012