Lost My Children to a Liar
I Hate God!!!!!!!!
I was a good Christian woman and mother of 4. My 1st husband was a control freak that divorced me because I went to lunch with my sister. (I wasn't allowed to leave the house or have friends or talk to my family). I remarried to a wife beater and through abuse conciling decided to divorce him to protect myself and my children. My second husband and 1st husband teamed up and kidnapped my children (2 with each) including my breastfeeding infant son. I got custody of my two youngest in one court; but in another court the Judge took away my two daughters (ages 7 and 10) because my two ex's said I was a "street walking prostitute that left my children home alone at night while I walked the street." I have never nor could I ever do such a thing. I taught Bible study, sang in my church choir and didn't believe in sex outside of marriage. Now, 2 years later and I still don't have my daughters. They have suffered so much gaining tons of weight. They are both in the top 97% in weight when they were always slender. I think they are eating out of the stress of loosing their mother. I cry every night. Have for the past 2 years. I have prayed constantly and have had many (not just my church) different prayer groups praying for my family. After 2 years, my daughters now 9 and 12 are still with this abusive, control freak father who won sole custody and I only get to see them one day a month! He never took them to church, but I did. God let this evil man get my girls! I prayed the Judge would see the truth; but he believes I am a crazy street walking hoe. God didn't answer any of my prayers. They say God answers prays on His time, not your time. But, my prayer is to raise my children - to late! My prayer is that this had NEVER happened. It did!!! If you pray not to be late to a meeting you are running to and God answers on His time (after you miss the meeting) what good is the prayer? I can't believe anyone would believe these lies about me. That is why I lost custody. I didn't take it serious. I figured the Judge would throw the whole thing out. But instead he took away my girls and gave me supervised visitation. GOD SUCKS! Why did He give us the ability to LOVE our children so deeply and then make us suffer so intensly while we watch them suffer? If He is all powerfull, then why won't he help? This is KILLING me, why can't he at least stop INJUSTICE in this world is maddening! I HATE GOD for letting this happen and for not answering my calls for help!