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Lost My Children to a Liar

I Hate God!!!!!!!!

I was a good Christian woman and mother of 4.  My 1st husband was a control freak that divorced me because I went to lunch with my sister.  (I wasn't allowed to leave the house or have friends or talk to my family).  I remarried to a wife beater and through abuse conciling decided to divorce him to protect myself and my children.  My second husband and 1st husband teamed up and kidnapped my children (2 with each) including my breastfeeding infant son.  I got custody of my two youngest in one court; but in another court the Judge took away my two daughters (ages 7 and 10) because my two ex's said I was a "street walking prostitute that left my children home alone at night while I walked the street."  I have never nor could I ever do such a thing.  I taught Bible study, sang in my church choir and didn't believe in sex outside of marriage.  Now, 2 years later and I still don't have my daughters.  They have suffered so much gaining tons of weight.  They are both in the top 97% in weight when they were always slender.  I think they are eating out of the stress of loosing their mother.  I cry every night.  Have for the past 2 years.  I have prayed constantly and have had many (not just my church) different prayer groups praying for my family.  After 2 years, my daughters now 9 and 12 are still with this abusive, control freak father who won sole custody and I only get to see them one day a month!  He never took them to church, but I did.  God let this evil man get my girls!  I prayed the Judge would see the truth; but he believes I am a crazy street walking hoe.  God didn't answer any of my prayers.  They say God answers prays on His time, not your time.  But, my prayer is to raise my children - to late!  My prayer is that this had NEVER happened.  It did!!!  If you pray not to be late to a meeting you are running to and God answers on His time (after you miss the meeting) what good is the prayer?  I can't believe anyone would believe these lies about me.  That is why I lost custody.  I didn't take it serious.  I figured the Judge would throw the whole thing out.  But instead he took away my girls and gave me supervised visitation.  GOD SUCKS!  Why did He give us the ability to LOVE our children so deeply and then make us suffer so intensly while we watch them suffer?  If He is all powerfull, then why won't he help?  This is KILLING me, why can't he at least stop INJUSTICE in this world is maddening!  I HATE GOD for letting this happen and for not answering my calls for help!

twonyx twonyx 36-40 3 Responses Aug 2, 2009

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This is very distressing story, but it's no good blaming God. That won't help you although you may have good friends in your church who can speak up for you. If there is such a thing as a god it didn't influence your nasty husbands or the court. I hope that you will be re-united with your children - is there any form of legal or social services, or child-protection organisation, to whom you can turn?

I HATE LIARS TOO! NOTHING ****** ME OFF MORE THAN SOMEONE GIVING YOU A BUNCH OF FALSE PROMISES. IT"S BETTER SOMEONE SHUTS THE **** UP ALL THE WAY AND NEVER SPEAK THAN TO LIE. I'VE LEARNED THE LESS ******** I TRUST AND TALK TO THE BETTER YOU REAL FEEL. SOME OF THE BEST DAYS IN MY LIFE HAVE BEEN WHEN I NEVER TALKED TO ANYONE OR LEFT THE HOUSE. SO DON"T BY THAT PSYCHOLOGY BULL **** DO WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BLESSED. AND GO WITH YOUR GUT.

ME TOO!<br />
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Dear Twonyx, <br />
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My heart goes out to you and can understand your temptation to hate God. I have a very similar situation and do not cope at all well this not seeing my 2 children. I have seen my daughter and son for only 40 minutes in the last two years. The frustrating thing for me is the courts do believe me and the children’s father just refuses to let them see me despite repeated court orders. The courts identify him as a narcissist and a danger to the children’s mental health. Their dad simple doesn't care. I am frustrated no punishment is given as this is not in the "best interest" as a fine adds financial stress and jail would make the children feel guilty so he just gets away with abusing the children and me forever. I could write a book but I do not want to give other psychopaths the ideas to destroy more lives. My ex husband is a diagnosed narcissistic personality disorder but he didn't like the diagnosis so gets no help. His behaviour since if a low to moderate level psychopath as he has no conscience, has not understanding of what he is told of the consequences of his behaviour, is a pathological liar (another book!) and is above any authority. He and only he knows best. And even though the children have expressed they want to spend time with me and that they love me, they are held captive.<br />
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So I do understand. I would not have coped at all without reconnecting with God. I do not understand any of it and have had to throw myself in with faith (I put it all at the foot of the cross as it was all too much for me!) or I would have died of a broken heart by now. Until I reconnected I bitterly cried often and was very defensive. My ex did a lot of "crazy-making” but I see it clearer now. I am learning to like myself again and trust in the strength of a mother’s love. There is nothing like it. <br />
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I will add you to my prayers. Please add me to yours.