.....It gets in the way. I'm close to very few people, so it makes it even harder.....when someone whom you've grown to care for just stabs you in the back and just leaves you there to bleed. Whether it's a friend or a love interest, you can't deny the feeling, because as much as you try and ignore the pain and push it away, it's still there and it still hurts.
Sure, you can play the stoic (like me) but that doesn't mean that you don't FEEL anything. I try and put up a brave front, and it works, and people won't even realize that I'm wounded, except for me. I hate feelings.....people say that if I don't feel that I'll grow up a psycho. Well, having feelings isn't exactly easy. You just....... have to continue living with it....and embrace the scars that'll no doubt come along for the ride.
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