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I Hate High School

A Private School Girl's Experience

By: catybug
Written on January 23rd, 2011
Unfortunately things aren't any easier for prep school kids. Atleast not for me. My school is small, with only 95 kids in my senior class. Most of those kids are the stereotypical preppies; white, blonde, straight hair, perfect skin, thin, wealthy. Lax is their religion and laxers are their gods. The school parking lot is full of daddy's BMWs and Lexuses.

I am, unfortunately, not one of these kids. I'm tall and thin. I'm pale. I have short hair. I don't play sports anymore. My hobbies include acting and reading, not partying and throwing up in parking lots. My family isn't wealthy, not even close. Needless to say I don't fit in.

I mean, I'm not a total loser.  Well, no, that's a lie, I really am.  I'm involved in a couple things (mock trial, theater, clubs), but I don't run anything.  I'm not the super popluar student council president.  I'm just the loner girl who occasionally can be found sitting by a window reading.  And while I sometimes feel sad about that, I know that in the last three and a half years NOBODY has ever made me feel welcome.  Students, teachers, everybody... no one has ever made me feel like I belong at that school.  They just treat me like air, or, in a rare of affection, they make fun of me. 

Everything I was told my first day of school was a lie. I was told that I'll make friends for life, that I'll be accepted, and that I'll have a great four years. Want to know what happened right after that? I walked by the library and saw two older girls sitting there (I think they were juniors). One girl turned, looked at me, looked back her friend and said "She looks like a man." Great first day, right? And people wonder why I don't talk much. Or why I don't trust easily. Or why I just kind of dislike people in general. And while I have a couple friends now I know that I'm not gonna speak to them after graduation. I just won't. I don't feel any closeness to anyone at this school, and honestly my greatest desire right now is to just leave.

I just hope things get better in college.



By: catybug
Age: 18-21 , Female
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    milesaway77
    milesaway77

    I am exactly like you. Sometimes I don't dare to say it but my favorite thing in school is the academic part. My hobbies are writing and acting . I have always aspire to be an actress and I know if I want to make it big I have to train like a dog in dance , acting and singing . and not waste my time in stupid ****. Imagine them in 20 years later and then imagine yourself. See the difference

    Jan 12
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    Areta
    Areta

    You'd go farther than those girls will. Their brains are air and even if they're not failing college, they are dumb anyway for hurting people, sleeping around, or doing something that they're good at....being stupid. You are smarter and better than they are. Spoiled bitchy brats are what they are. Hey, who knows, they are probably jealous of your awesomness. (lol)

    Jun 1, 2012
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    angelabee1984
    angelabee1984

    I was sent 2 a grammar school in UK. One of the mosat elite...it was horrible...Then I discovered my crowd, geeky girls who love math...uhm I guess, u may need 2 find your tribe. That is the best advice I can offer. Good luck.

    May 13, 2012
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    alixi
    alixi

    I think I can understand this! I'm only in eighth grade, but my school is K-12 so it's pretty much the same through the same school. I wrote a story about my experience in private school, I suggest you read it! EP Link

    Good luck, and even though you feel alone (I know I do, anyway) you're not completely!

    Nov 22, 2011
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    consa
    consa

    Were you on a scholarship? If so, how did you qualify? Why did your parents send you there?

    Once you finish high school, you will be free to live the rest of your life as you wish.

    Nov 6, 2011
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    catybug
    catybug

    Thank you, I appreciate that ^-^ and I'll try my hardest to do that. I'm ready to start over.

    Jan 28, 2011
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    TheThird
    TheThird

    Don't just hope, Catybug. If you want things to be better in college, I encourage you to do everything you possibly can to make that happen. Be very aware and conscious of your circumstances and decisions. It's possible that things will get better as you move forward in life but it's also possible that they won't. You may have noticed that there are people older than you who feel the same way you do about their lives and environments. You seem pretty on top of it so I really hope you find your way to something better. :)

    Jan 23, 2011
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