Hate Him So Much

we started seeing each other no string attached, after a while i began to have feelings for him, he told me he didnt want a relationship :(...
i did learn to deal with that and we kept seeing each other every other weekend for some fun, i enjoyed his company and missed him when i wasnt near him, he would constantly tell me i was cute and that he liked me alot and would send me messages telling me he was missing me. i eventually fell pregnant to him and he was so happy and would rub my belly and smile, He would make me melt inside with happiness, then i had a miscarriage :( and he started to ignore me withing weeks he was seeing someone else and posting pics of them on facebook, then a few weeks after that he announced she was pregnant with his baby :( they broke up while she was pregnant but he has stood by her the whole time, the baby was born a couple of days ago and i just cant help but feel resentfull toward them..
my hatred for him grows stronger everytime i think of him and what he put me through...
i feel i will be this way for ever i will never find happiness and i will never find the one that will stand by me through thick and thin.
I do still have feelings for him but i would never be able to forgive him for what has happened...
Can anyone give me any advise....
Im so lost :(
marz82 marz82
26-30, F
2 Responses Nov 26, 2012

try to reborn your desires u wished once before he came to your life. take your life seriously and set a aim in your life.. do what ever gives you happiness. don't let yourself suffer for the mistake of someone else's. trust me life is wonderful, don't waste it in grief.. have a right attitude, be humble, it seems u r a kind hearted person, a very rare species. so be worthy of what you are.. thankyou.. happy for ever... :) :)

I don't know how to tell you to wait it out, but do. At the cost of sounding cheesy, that's the best advice I could give. I certainly don't have an authority, expertise, or non-hypocritical position. It's not like I stumble across this cite on accident. I haven't ever posted, but for some reason I felt like you could use a voice besides the one in your head. Please live.