April 22, 2012
I had lost someone that I loved dearly, not because she didn't love me, but for other reasons.
Good reasons, but I was lost. I didn't know why she had left.... I'm glad to say that she is back with me, no words can truly describe it.
But for that time when she was gone and I hadn't even the slightest idea of what was happening besides the fact she wasn't here with me. ...
If you have heard the song called Cry by Kelly Clarkson, I will be referencing some of her lyrics.

I am a girl who does not like to say that I'm not ok. I hate asking people for help, my pride gets in the way...
Everyone around me knows how distraught I truly was. From what I knew, you were gone forever. I was alone, I was in the dark, I felt that I deeply had no purpose if you weren't with me..... I was very lost. I just lied in my bed, holding my pillow as if it was you, and cried.

"Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry.... "

I missed you more and more each hour. Everything reminded me of you. I'd stare at the ring and angel you gave me. I'd whisper.... "Are you here my angel? I miss you. I want you back with me. Please tell me we'll be together again..."

I was a mess, I kept telling everyone that I was ok. That everything will workout. I tried to tell myself even though I was in deep remorse....
"I'm talking in circles.
I'm lying; they know it.
Why won't this all just go away?"

May 5, 2012
Around 1:30 am I got a call from her. I was overwhelmed with emotions. I started crying, I missed her so much. A girl brought up from the dead in my eyes. My heart was filled again. My everything was back into my life and I couldn't be happier.
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May 9, 2012