Hate Is a Strong Word, But Not Strong Enough

Everything about this person that i see in the mirror, i hate.

The way she looks, the way she thinks, the way she acts and even the way she feels. Sometimes i just wanna be away from this low esteemed, hypocritical, lying, and totally unworthy person. Because of so many events that have occured around her, she has become one that i wish to disassoicate with.

Tml she is going for her attachment and she feels so ugly she wishes not to appear at work. Society doesn't allow that, it's defined as deviance and she does not want to deviate from the society, she just wants to dissappear from it.

If there is any way out of this S**t life, please tell her...

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2 Responses Feb 15, 2009

no one knows<br />
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i hate me one second. next second i'm happy. i hate that i let anybody in. ever. i hate vulnerability. so what without it. it hurts less. can't do it. too intense - i'll keep them at arms length. i like my wall.<br />
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that person in the mirror changes on a minute by minute basis. do you ever like her? sometimes i like me. maybe we should only ever float on the surface - underneath it gets too messy for people like us. stay superficial. less painful.

This quote seems to help describe my feelings, don’t know if it will help you.<br />
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"There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman some kind of an abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something of misery, though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and u can feel flesh gripping yours, and maybe u can even feel our lifestyles are compliable, I’m just simply not there"