My Scars

Hi there,

I suffer from acne scars (Horrible looking dents) they have pretty much destroyed my confidence, and self esteem.
My scars are on one side of my cheek, I have my hair long, and put to one side to cover it. So you can Imagine how paranoid I am when It's windy outside, and my hair is blown away form the area to reveal my distgusting scars. I wish I could go back to having short, spiked up hair like I used too, but I know that I'll never be able to manage it. (emotionaly)
I first started getting acne when I was 16, and am now 22. I used to have smooth skin that had no pimples, let alone scars.

I remember as a kid, I would see people older than me with either bad pimples, or bad scaring caused by pimples, and think "wow, poor guy/girl" I used to have nightmares about getting bad acne (no ****) and now I have it, the nightmare came true. And now, now I don't dream because I'm afraid I'll have another nightmare that will come true.

I just want to know, why me?
What did I do in my past life that was so bad, to deserve this? Ok, I know I'm not alone, I know I'm not the only one with this stuff, but it doesnt feel like it, I feel... Alone. And I know there are alot of others that feel the same way.

I no longer socailize. I go to work, then come straight home, and play computer games. I like playing games, It's a way I can socailize, and relax without worrying about my scars, and the judgemental views of other human being's.

But... at the end of the day, I wish I would just simply dissapear, Vanish into nothingness.
And that, as they say Is that.
Dakaroth Dakaroth
22-25, M
3 Responses Sep 11, 2012

Hey Daka,I know how you feel. I had really bad cystic acne in high school and college. Now I am 26 and have deep acne scars all over my cheeks and chin. I feel awful when I look in the mirror or compare myself with other people. Ive realized the best way to deal with it is to tell myself I look ok and everything will be ok because in my heart I know, as long as Im a positive person around other people, no matter how I look, people will look past my imperfections and see ME. Its hard to stay positive when I think I look ugly, so I try to KO that idea as soon as it comes up. A positive self-image is one of the toughest problems to face as a human, but if you treat it as a challenge that will make you stronger in the end, it can be positive. Plus, remember, people all over the globe are disfigured in way worse ways. Just travel to a poverty-stricker, rural town or city and you'll see. Love is all that matters, not looks.

Hey guys, try chemical peeling. It takes sometime to show a result. But really does the job. Trust me. I'm using it. I have a big improvement

Same here. We just have to find a way I guess to act just as 'normal'... I have acne scars on my cheeks and forehead and there are times that I don't want to go outside and meet my old friends, and distant relatives because of it. It's good to hear from people who are going through the same. Until skin doctors find an efficient, cheap, and safe way to remove them, I think we just have to suck it up and move on from that. Good luck to us man!

I understand your pain man. I have acne scarring on my face and it has completely destroyed my self confidence. I used to by outgoing and now I prefer to stay home and be alone. I am a full time college student but its basically class, work and than home. I am attempting to build my self confidence but it is hard...