Hi viewers... I'm pregnant, hurt, lost, disrespected and alone... why? I was involved and thought that I was in love with this coward loser... I should have known he didn't give a crap about me because we have been hot and cold for the last six years...you couldn't tell me I didn't love him and had his crazy bipolar *** on a pedestal... I took all his disrespect from the name calling to the out of the blue I can't mess with you crap...it hurt so much but I was desperate to be and for him to love me... I'm not going to lie, I messed up one time but he was still dealing with me, some would say, Leading me on or just getting a peace but I was being really stupid. Well anyhow Apr/May rolls around and we find ourselves together again, having a lot of unprotected sex, frenchn, talkn about babies and all..I get pregnant and I thought he would want it because we never made it to the stage where we just didn't use condoms and That was what he wanted. Now I'm pregnant and he hates me and the baby he hasn't wanted anything to do withUs... its like we don't exist...he ignores calls, msgs and emails... I finally got fed up after almost three months and went to his home, he was not pleasant, the first time I left crying because of His attitude and the second well was a big blowout, he was grossed out by my tummy and kickd me out, we argued and that led to other things, bad words, mustard,ketchup, relish thrown everywhere...I guess I'm done with wanting and hoping for his acceptance....I feel so dumb for getting prenant but I love my baby...I'm all cried out but still really confused why baby and I are not important and he can easily turn his back....I hate his guts!!!