Hate Is Too Loose Of A Word...

MY SON'S FATHER AND I BROKE UP IN 2006. I MET THE MAN OF MY DREAMS MAY 10TH 2008. WE WEREN'T EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND. JUST FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS BUT THE FEELINGS CAME AND WE FOUND OUT THAT IT WAS ALL MUTUAL SO WE DECIDED TO MAKE IT OFFICIAL. SO TELL ME WHY MY HATIN *** ***** *** BABY DADDY DECIDES HE WANTS TO SCREW UP MY WHOLE LIFE JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WANT HIM ANYMORE???????????????? HE (BABY DADDY) LEAVES TO GO TO SCHOOL IN TEXAS AND LEAVES OUR SON WITH ME. WHEN I ASKED HIM TO SEND ME MONEY FOR OUR SON HE WIRES-THAT'S RIGHT I SAID WIRED-10 MEASLEY *** DOLLARS. I PUT THAT 10 IN MY GAS TANK. WTF IS THAT???????? WE GOT IN A HEATED DISCUSSION AND THE NXT THING I KNEW HE CAME BACK FROM TX AND TOOK MY SON. HE GAVE HIM BACK LIKE 2 WKS LATER AND WENT BACK TO TX. HE DECIDES HE WANTS TO COME BACK AND THEN TAKES MY SON FROM ME. I WENT A WHOLE MONTH BEFORE I COULD SEE MY SON. I DECIDED TO FILE CUSTODY PAPERS AND I ENDED UP LOSING. HOW YOU ASK???? HE BROUGHT UP THE FACT THAT HE DIDNT LIKE WHERE I STAYED BC IT WAS THE "PROJECTS", HOW MY BOYFRIEND HAS ONE DRUG CHARGE, AND MY BEST FRIEND HAS A F'D UP LIFE

MY BOYFRIEND BROKE UP WITH ME TODAY AND I CANT STOP CRYING. HE SAID HE WANTS ME TO BE ABLE TO GET MY SON BACK. I FUKIN HATE MY BABY DADDY FOR MAKING MY LIFE A LIVING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO WAY SHOULD A WOMAN HAVE TO PAY CHILD SUPPORT AND GO THROUGH THE BULLSHIT IM GOING THROUGH. I FEEL ALONE...IN A WORLD THAT NOBODY GIVES A *** ABOUT ME!!!!! I HAVE NOBODY HERE WITH ME....IM BY MYSELF....IVE NEVER FELT SO LONELY....I DONT HAVE NOBODY. I DONT HAVE MY SON....I DONT HAVE THE MAN I HAVE ONLY EVER LOVED....I HATE MY BABY DADDY! I WISH HE WASNT HERE! I WANT MY LIFE BACK TO HOW IT WAS! IT'S NOT FAIR THAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS BULLSHIT!! I AM A MOTHER!!! NOT A FATHER!!! I GIVE 2 **** ABOUT MY SON! I WANT MY SON BACK! I WANT MY LIFE BACK! I WANT TO BE HAPPY AND LOVED! WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME? I WANT MY BG BACK. I CANT STOP CRYING....

willALWAYSbMRSGRANT willALWAYSbMRSGRANT
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 12, 2010

you need to love yourself first, a kid cant give you love does not know how to show love, it sounds like your sons dad acted to late but he got his son and you would have still had the arrangement you had if you had not gone to court and you now feel the pain many fathers do trying to get their kids back from their greedy ex wives. i can never forgive my mother for depriving me of my dad when i was younger how she stopped him from visiting taking me when it was his turn so i cut off all contact with her and only see and care about my dad because my dad is kind loving dad