I Think I Hate My Best Friend...

my best friend and i are together so much that we're pretty much known as a duo around school. but she and i are so different.

-she's really pretty and everyone knows it.

-i'm just regular and nobody notices me.

-she is rich while my family has financial problems. 

-she has everything(spoiled), i have the basic necessities for living.

i'm just fine with how i am, and i do not want to be like her. i'm glad she has a great life but the thing is....SHE IS SO MEAN TO ME! i am like her dog around school. and if i ever do better than her(like on tests), she says mean things to me. it's so stupid. and every guy i like, likes her (and doesn't know i exist). if that happened to her where a guy she liked, like me, i think she would go insane. but I have to deal with that everyday of my life with her!!!! she just doesn't understand. i can see how it may appear that i'm just jealous, but that is not the case. she is rude and mean and thinks she's all that and i do not want to be like that. another thing is that i am religious and she is not so she always disses God and it makes me feel uncomfortable all the time.

and i always have to lie to her about hanging out with my other friends because she would get mad and get revenge.

i think the worst thing is that even though she has everything, she complains about her life SO MUCH while i am actually suffering from depression and i never complain out loud to anyone. i always have to lie about where im going when i see my psychologist because then she would say something like "that's dumb you're probably not even depressed". it may seem that she is an all out bad friend but she IS there for me when i need help with homework or something like that. so she is good to me sometimes and has even saved me with some major projects at school.

but in my heart i feel that if helping me would make her look bad, i dont' think she would be would do it. the bad things about her hurt me, but the good things about her keep me hanging on.

the bottom line is: she just doesn't know how it feels to be the ugly one. she doesn't know how it feels to be ignored. whenever we meet new people together, it's all eyes on her. nobody cares about me. and she just doesn't know how that feels.

sandfordfuzz sandfordfuzz
18-21, F
10 Responses May 7, 2007

Oh my god! I have the EXACT same problem. I never say anything when I'm pissed.<br />
My crush goes home and texts her even though he's in my school and in my bus :<br />
I spend more time with him but he likes her more. She's this really popular girl. I'm the ugly best friend. I'm so happy I'm not alone. Thanks for sharing your story. <br />
Stay strong.

Best friend? You sure? What she's doing to you... it's horrible. You don't have to take it!! It seems to me that you're always doing what she wants because you don't want to be the mean friend, once you already feel like you're the ugly and worse one. YOU'RE NOT! Stop thinking like that! That girl doesn't let you see that there are plenty of people out there that like you and that think you're pretty, because SHE is probably jealous of you, or scared to death that you "take her place". Believe me, she knows your potential. Get over it. Show her you don't need her, because you don't. You deserve friends who love you for you. Show her you're everything without her, but SHE isn't anything without you. <br />
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And just adding something: Maybe you're like her dog around the school because you want to. If you start saying NO, you'll see, things will start to get better. Don't be silly girl! You're powerful, but you can't let all this power inside you. Set it free!

The bottom line is, you gotta look out for you. If "ANYONE" stands in your way you got to let them know how you feel. Dont be an ******* about it, just explain to them why it bothers you...

hello mimi1995. as of today, me and my "best friend" are no longer friends. i realized that true friends will never make you feel like crap. you'll be better off without her. for sure.<br />
i know this might all sound cliche, but it's true.<br />
i wish you the best with your situation!

wow this is the first time im using this website and your story reflects exactly what happened with my friend and I today (sorry about my broken key board) shes been treating me like crap all day long and yet im the one apologizing. She;s using me in this war with my friends and now shes threatening to do something to my locker after ive bin doing anything i could do to be nice to her all day,despite her being bitchy to mmmme. I truly hate her rite now

wow this is the first time im using this website and your story reflects exactly what happened with my friend and I today (sorry about my broken key board) shes been treating me like crap all day long and yet im the one apologizing. She;s using me in this war with my friends and now shes threatening to do something to my locker after ive bin doing anything i could do to be nice to her all day,despite her being bitchy to mmmme. I truly hate her rite now

she's NOT your friend. im sure there are alot out there who would do better as a bestfriend.

hey wow i can't believe someone commented my story. i wrote that a while ago and even forgot it was there.<br />
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but yes, i did manage to sort it all out.<br />
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we are no longer friends. looking back at it now, i don't even know how we were friends to begin with. she's exactly the kind of person i am against being. plastic, materialistic, and so on. although i still treasure the good times we had, i know what i did was for the best. and apparently i have support from my whole school, haha.<br />
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i wish you the best with your situation.<br />
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I feel exactly the same.<br />
Right to the last detail<br />
And I hate her so much.<br />
But why can't i just break it off.<br />
I'm crying now becasue of something she said<br />
Yet I'M the one apologizing yet again.<br />
Have you managed to sort it?

This person doesn't really seem like a "friend" if they are disrespectful of your religious views, jealous when you excel at something, etc. I know she keeps you hanging on, but friends are supposed to support you and be there for you no matter what...I hope you work things out =