Friends Or Not? I Dont Know Anymore

i have been friends with ashley *not real name of course* for about a year and half. We met at school and to be honest, i dont even know why or how we became friends. We soon found out we had similar interest in music and movies. We were so close that people in our group of friends envied us.

School was really hard for me and i couldnt handle it so i started cutting myself. Ashley helped me stop and for that i was so grateful. that was about 4 or 5 months ago and thats when things started going bad.

i left school at the beginning of the year and everything was fine between us. i had new friends and she had our old ones but she soon started getting kinda jealous of me coz i was doing what i was passionate about. We started to drift apart but we always came back to each other.

about 3 weeks ago things got really bad. She started hanging out with all these people i cant stand. she keeps lying to me and saying she isnt friends with them but ive seen them hanging out. It hurts me so much that she lies to me. we were at a party while ago and i kissed a guy she liked *i had no idea she liked him* and this caused a big fight. she started bitching to everyone about me. i even found out she wrote nasty things about me on myspace.

things havent really gotten better. im starting to hate all the little things. the way she copies me, the way she listens to the same bands as me, the way she dresses like i do, the way she does her make up, the way she lies to me over and over again,you get the idea. i know imitation is a form of flatery but i hate it. i want to be the best person i can without her copying my every move. im still undecided if i should talk to her or not. ive tried before and it just lead to more lies and more hatered towards her. as stupid as this sounds. i hate her so much but i need her. i have no idea what to do. anyone have any sugestions?

dearlydemented dearlydemented
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 25, 2006

i have the same exact problem. i just posted a story (The Sudden Fallout) and i have the same problem. i hate my 'best friends" so much but i need them. i don't know what to do either but i think I'mgoing to stop being nice to them. if they have no need to be my friend why do i need to be theirs. there are so many people int he world don't let this girl make u upset

With a friend like that, who needs enemies?

Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer. . .

well played. I applaud you.