Is My Birthday And I'll Cry If I Want To

I've always wanted a celebration for my birthday. I have gone to restaurants and have seen a table full of people celebrating with a girl with a tiara on and I've always wanted to be "that girl."

Growing up, my family didn't have a lot of money, so when my friends birthdays rolled around, I always got to go to their parties, partake on their celebrations, but I never had one myself. However, there was always money around to celebrate my brothers' birthdays. After I moved out, my birthday would pass with no gift from my parents, only a simple phone call (which is fine, but them my brother's birthday rolls around and he gets a gift ad cake and then it's finally, " oh here you go, happy belated birthday."

My husband is not any better. I just want a dinner with friends or a small celebration, but he can't pick up the phone and make plans. Instead, my celebration always ends in tears and me planning what to do for myself.

I would have no clue how to act if anyone acknowledged my birthday. I've just always wanted to feel special and have my day. After 31 years, I doubt it'll ever happen.
Pinkas Pinkas
31-35, F
1 Response Nov 3, 2012

Your birthdays sound a bit like mine. Something I do is set aside birthday money and I buy myself something nice. Also, I can eat whatever I want to on my birthday and drink as much as I like.