Weight Others Love, Even Though I Hate
okay, so i am a 20 year old woman, i weigh. (135? i'm not sure) but under 140. anyways i HATE MY BODY, and i cant seem to do anything about it, i cant lose it, but i cant gain it either. (that should be a good thing, right?) am i crazy for not wanting to eat? am i crazy for wanting to starve myself just to lose weight? what is wrong with me?! am i just some insecure nothing? it's killing me inside to know after so long. after so many operations, that i'm not really thin. it disgusted me. no destroyed me to hear my grandfather say: (you've got a little fat on you) REALLY?! HOW?! WHY?! IS THAT SO POSSIBLE WHEN SO MANY PEOPLE SAY I SHOULD GAIN WEIGHT?! is it just me? is it all in my head? am i just an insensitive annoying *****?! what is wrong with me? i just want advice... anyone? please? anyone.