I Try

i try to feel comfortable in my own skin, but it just doesn't work. i have a birth mark that covers more than half my body. i won't wear shorts...ever! i walk with a limp that causes people to ask questions, and my hand is impossible to cover. everyday i face my body and usually through the eyes of questioning others. my face doesn't have a birthmark, which i am extremely grateful for, but instead i have horrible acne. that's all the stuff with the outside appearence. now for the resentment i have toward my body for not functioning correctly either. i also have birthmarks on some of my organs, including my esophogus, bladder, colon, and ovary's, that's all we know of so far. i always have an upset stomach, my periods are hell, and my veins don't work right either. i'm fat, well, i look pregnant, and get asked all the time, but because of my damn body, i can't even have kids! i have to wear support hose because my veins function like those of an 80 year old woman, and i'm in pain all the time. whew...i think that's about it. sorry this came out as a jumbled mess, i'm kinda of angry about my body and i have a hard time expressing that. thank you for listening though, and i do try very hard to look past it and be grateful it's not worse. but it is truly hard.