Mirrors.....

I can't stand to look at them, which sucks because there's a huge one on my bedroom wall.  It's just so hard for me to like my body, I can't stand it.  People will tel me that I look fine, but I just think they're lying to make me feel better.

I've been pro-ana for nearly two years.  My weight went down a lot within the first months, but then I plateaued.  I started at about 115 and my lowest was 102, which still isn't that big a differenc.  But I noticed that more people would comment on how good I looked and say stuff like "You look so great" and "wow, you're so skinny."  Only after about a year and a half I started binging, and i wasn't purging as often.  Then I started gaining the weight.   Now I'm trying to lose it all and I'm at 112.

It's been really hard and I need the support, I can't talk to any of my friends they don't understand.  They insult pro-ana/mia all the time.  And that hurts.

effyxd effyxd
18-21
Mar 4, 2009