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Body Dysmorphic Disorder

A personal story in the experience: I Hate My Body
I have BDD so I can totally relate to this group. I find myself not just ugly but repulsive. I hate looking in the mirror and it takes me forever to leave the house sometimes because I think people will be looking at me and laughing at the way I look. If I'm having a good day I'll think I'm not too bad and think I'm crazy for feeling so ugly all the time. On a bad day - well, I tried to cut of my nose. I thought that if I did the doctors would creat me a new one that would be so much nicer than the one I have now. If I had the money I would have a nose job, breast augmentation and lift, liposuction on thighs, stomach and chin, I would have a brow lift and any other cosmetic treatment going. I would be unrecognisable!!

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Posted Oct 28th, 2007 at 10:53AM
I don't think it's vanity, I just want to be able to look in the mirror with out feeling disgusted. I guess even if I had all that done I still wouldnt be happy though.
     
Posted Nov 17th, 2007 at 5:58PM
I think I would just feel the same....BBD is in my head, not my outer body. Plastic surgary won't change that......thats why so many surgeons want a psychiatric test done first now to make sure you are doing it for the right reasons.
     
Posted Apr 25th, 2008 at 3:23PM
I promise, even though I hate myself I do understand that a lot of it is in my mind and therefore I wouldn't go extreme with surgary
     
Posted Mar 11th, 2009 at 10:54PM
:/ i know how you feel!
okay so basically last year
i was 15, 5'3", and 108 lbs! i didn't like my calves (they are huge) or stomach, and my nose, and boobs (they are too small) but that was basically it. my thighs were very nice though.
now i'm turning 16 in a few weeks and i'm 5'4" and weigh freaking 130lbs!!!! i HATE HATE HATE DESPISE my body! its repulsive!! my stomach is over the top, my thighs touch all the way down (there's not even a space in the middle of my thighs) my arms are huge, my cheeks have gotten bigger, i have love handles now, my butt got huge.
but i think the worst part is my thighs. i must have gained 10 lbs on them. every time they touch i want to cut them off. i pinch my fat until i cry because i just want it to dissappear. i hate being chunky. my boobs are STILL small and my calves still large. i would give pretty much ANYTHING to be skinny again :/
i am so depressed about my body its insane.

also, i go to a private school where ALL the girls have perfect bodies. i catch myself staring at them and comparing myself.

my insecurities are within reason though. i know i'm not hallucinating. i just hate everything about my body right now.

i know exactly how you feel.
     
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Posted May 14th, 2009 at 10:27AM
a have a problem alsooo! takes me ages to leave house! feel like everyones going to laff at me n get really paranoid about myself! xxx
     
Posted May 23rd, 2009 at 6:29PM
I can relate to all of this...and the comments, too. It strikes me as odd that all of us all hate our bodies, and we are all connecting with one another on the internet... where none of us really has any answers! I just want a freaking answer!! I am 5'5" and I weigh around 130. I'm getting a YMCA membership...and I really plan on getting all this weight OFF!
+2 nods     
Posted Jun 6th, 2009 at 9:46PM
I feel the same way. Sometimes I'm afraid of being around people because I feel like I hear them thinking about how ugly I look and anytime someone looks at me for a prolonged time, I automatically think that they think I'm disgusting and I feel really sad.
     
Posted Jul 26th, 2009 at 9:55PM
I probably have the same problem.ALthough,I don't always feel like it's all in my head.Sometimes Im pretty sure I have valid reason.I've just gave up and decided I'm always gonna feel ugly and be a virgin the rest of my life(i'm almost 24).I say **** it
     
Posted Sep 9th, 2009 at 2:49AM
Having had eating disorders and BDD I know what you're going through. Sometimes im scared to leave the house too because I dont want anybody to see me. I avoid going to certain places and I hide away. A few weeks ago 2 boys were behind me and started calling me fat names. Now Im paranoid when people walk behind me.
I think im a fat ugly woman and i wish i could learnt to love myself
     
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