The first prominent issues that I've had about my body have been since I've been liking this guy; Bob, let's say. And I really want Bob, but I truly think that he will not take a second glance at me with the way I look now. I have a fat ***, my thighs are squishy, and I hate my middle. I'm 135 lb and 5"6, but can't stand it. The girls I see him look at are itty-bitty, and have beautiful bodies. I hate the clothes I wear, because they make me look fat, and I hate that I'm too fat to wear the clothes I like. I wish I was smaller, harder, and more muscular, but I feel so flabby and weak.
I know its bad to tailor yourself for somebody else, like a boy, but I know that it isn't just for Bob. I want to be beautiful for any boy, and for myself. I hate my body. I hate looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I hate it.