My Boyfriend Likes Men With Breasts.
So, my boyfriend has this thing for guys with boobs... I know, random and strange. He checks out women too, I mean, he is very attracted to women. But, he gets all hot and bothered at the thought of dudes with breasts. He gets all hot and bothered at the thought of having his own breasts, wearing women's clothing, makeup. I know men that dress in women's clothing and feel comfortable, but my BF actually gets really really horny at even the thought doing it himself which as far as I know, transvestites just like wearing women's clothing, not really turned on by it. Maybe I'm ignorant.
Needless to say, I'm a little taken aback. I'm a pretty open minded person. But having sex with a guy who is wearing women's clothing? We've done it a couple times and it was kinda funny... but not something I want to do a whole lot... or ever again really. It was kinda weird. If we never do it again, I won't miss it.
And its gotten to the point where he talks about it alot. And then he told me one night that he thinks about men with breasts and transsexuals when we're having sex... I was totally devastated, I started crying, I told him that it wasn't cool by far. Really over the line. He told me it was sometimes the only way he can get off.
I feel really violated that someone I love and who supposedly loves me would take the act of intimacy and sex and block me out and basically be having sex with someone else in his head. I told him if I don't turn him on, if I'm not attractive to him, why would he even touch me? If I'm not enough, then leave. If you aren't attracted to someone, why even date them?
Last night, he came over. We screwed around a little, it didn't really go anywhere. Then we're just kinda laying around in bed, I pick up my lap top and put it on my lap and ask him about some Avon stuff on-line I wanted to buy; I wanted his opinion on colors. Then we start just surfing the web. Then he takes the computer and starts showing me all these pictures and sites with guys with breasts and breast enhancement products and other products for cross dressers.
He said opening up like this helps him feel closer to me. It just makes me feel devalued. Here I am trying to get his opinion on if a color matches my skin tone and he takes the computer and starts showing me guys with boobs... while we're laying in bed together... how self centered. OK, if he doesn't wanna help his girlfriend pick out makeup, that's fine. If he wants to be a woman or be with a transsexual man to woman, that's fine. But don't sit in bed with me expressing what turns you on when it isn't your girlfriend. I've told him that if he isn't attracted to me and is attracted to some other, to just effing go with it. He insists that he loves me. And the weird thing is, I think he does. But then there is this other side. I've checked out women before, I've even dated a couple, but I don't think of hot women while I'm making love with him, I'm too busy being with him.
He thinks about someone or something else while we're having sex. It makes the idea of sex with him repulsive. I don't even like kissing him anymore. And I love the guy. Its so weird.