Other Times I'm Scared Of Him

My older brother has always been an angry person. Even as kids, if he's angry, I hide. Never mattered if it was my fault or nothing to do with me. I let him beat me.

I remember the day i finally got a lock for my bedroom door. The same day he broke through it. My mother was never home, and my father was too far away.

The worst was when he grabbed me by my throat, lifted me, and threw me across the parking lot. This was in front of my mother and her friends. Her friends helped me, not my mother.

I sometime wonder if my relationship with my brother influenced my relationship with guys. I'm in my third serious relationship, and just like the last two, it's abusive.

Hate is a strong word, but fear is stronger.

mocha23 mocha23
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 17, 2013

I'm going through the same thing right now

the only way i got out was by distancing myself my from him. the only problem it can lead to alienating yourself from the rest of the family.