Please Someone Help Me, I Want To Hurt My 6 Month Old SonI am a single young mom, completley on my own. My family does not speak to me and my "friends" dissapeared when I got pregnant. My sons father left me at 30 wks pregnant for another woman. Previous to this he loved his unborn baby and I was confident we would stay together. When he left I was treated for depression due to suicidal thoughts. I am still in love with him and its been almost a year since weve spoke.
Every time my son crys, I grit my teeth.
I can't stand him
I feel no emotional attachment at all and often wonder how I would react to this death.
The majority of the time I leave him in his crib, all day.
He is not at all a difficult baby, in fact everyone I come across cannot believe how content he is.
But still, I cannot deal with him.
I feed him, bath him when he needs to be,
I don't play with him and I rarely hold him.
These feelings have got so intense, but I have thought about it and realized they got this bad when I stopped breastfeeding 2 months ago.
I feel very guilty for stopping as I feel thats when we had a close bond.
I don't know what to do,
I do not want to be one of those mothers in the news for hurting their child but sometimes I just don't know what to do....
This breaks my heart 100% because I know he is innocent and only a baby...
Jennammcq 18-21, F 9 Responses 0 Jun 7, 2011