My Daughter Drive Me Crazy!

I am a new mom to a set of boy/girl twins and I am so mad at myself for allowing myself to think this way, much less feel this way about two little innocent people. I have NO friends that I can talk to about this and my fiance just doesn't understand and looks at me like I am nuts. My twin boy loves me and he shows it. He hugs me, comes to me and plays with me. My twin daughter acts as if she HATES me. She goes to everyone else, smiles and laughs with and at everyone else and when I am around, she screams and whines NON STOP and it drives me crazy and I have resentful feelings towards her. I got so stressed out yesterday that I thought about packing a bag and just running away. I dont know what to do. I am in NO way mean to either of them. I hate even spanking them or spatting their hands when I tell them no. I just dont know what to do. I just wish I had someone to talk to. She is my precious baby girl and I want to be her best friend, but she just despises me!!!
sadmotheroftwins sadmotheroftwins
36-40, F
1 Response May 24, 2012

Oooh... I can feel you!<br />
What you are talking about... is actually somewhat what I've been going through with my 2 older kids for the past 2 1/2 years...<br />
My son is about a year older then my daughter...<br />
And just like you wrote... he loves me and likes to spend time with me...<br />
But my daughter hates me and doesn't need me at all. If there's ANYBODY ELSE there, even strangers on the street, she talks and goes to them and smiles and all that sweet stuff...<br />
All I get from her is NO and GO AWAY and things like that...<br />
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Problem with that for me is not, that she treats me like that... -well that's not the big problem...<br />
It is that I feel that I am not able to treat her the same as my other two kids anymore...<br />
When I get the chance to spend time with her all by ourselves, -I am a single mother, so thosed opportunities are rare, -I really do try to have a good and loving time with her....<br />
But it is hard... every single day.... =(