Killing Myself Again
I could have had her. looking back, I now know she wanted me, but I was afraid to push her when she was still in love with him, even if she didn't want to be. I helped her get over him, but by the time I thought dating her would be a good idea, she had decided I was too good a friend (story of my life.) She says she can't risk losing me as a friend by taking our relationship beyond friendship, but I don't believe her. I don't know what to believe. I set her up with a friend I trusted, but now they are always talking to me about each other. I am planning on getting an apartment with him, and I hope that eventually I will just become numb.