My Dad Has Never Put Me First - Ever!

My parents have been separated since I was 1 1/2. My mother moved east and my father west and my father remarried soon after. Since then I have been a project for my Dad rather than a daughter or even a person. He does not pay me even the basic courtesies that he does to others such as thank you, hello and good morning. He gets angry that my Mum moved away but never tried to visit, expecting me to do all the travelling. He still blames me for her moving away and tried to blame me for his smoking.
I am tired of the loud, critical voice my Dad continually uses on me. It borders on verbal abuse and is incredibly rude. When he travelled to my home town recently on other matters he refused to travel the extra 1 hr by train to see me, and we haven't seen each other in 7 years, so I went to him, driving after doing work at Uni. He didn't even say hello before starting on the criticising and then spent the next 24 hours telling me I was selfish. I admit I'm not perfect but I am sick and tired of nothing I do ever being good enough. He expects me (and everyone) to randomly drop what they are doing if he wants to talk and isn't interested in me at all.
I will not be visiting again. I am sick and tired of the crap I get put through and the only good thing about the trip was that I got to see two Aunts I hadn't seen in a long time. Thankfully we lunched without my Dad but I am never going back. I am tired of being treated like a second-class citizen. He does not love, like or even respect me and does not listen when I try to explain. I have tried to accommodate and make excuses for too long. Now I'm done.
totallyopenbook totallyopenbook
26-30, F
Jun 13, 2011