Sad

the only childhood memories of my dad are him hitting or yelling at me he did nothing with or for me.  8 years ago when my baby sister was born my dad told me and my mum that is if my mum ever died he would state away put me and my sister in a home. When I was little I didn’t think much of what he said it was when  I watched him with my sister. Me and my mum looked after her.   when my sister was 3 she asked me if her dad loved her I stupidly asked him waist he was watching TV I said daddy do you love me and my sister he said to me shut up and go away so I did and I lied to her saying that daddy loves you very much but from that day I have hated him  ( but I don’t let him no) to him I am the perfect teenager I don’t drink, smoke i don’t go out to make or meat friends (I haven’t had I friend sins I was 8 years old because I’m not allowed to)He is very possessive of me and my mum he won’t let me youse the phone or  on the family computer without him knowing (that is why it is 11:59 at night) I am also not aloud out after 7:00 at night.

I think he tries to by my love he will buy me anything I want but I don’t see that as love all I want is a dad who on father’s day I don’t wish the day was over or  make sour I’m working  early till late. Or when my mum is at work and my sister is crying to comfort her .


 

But I guess through all of this I learnt how to take care of myself and my sister from the age of 8 to 17 years

 

dorsetgirl dorsetgirl
18-21, F
May 5, 2012