He Is Not Capable Of Understanding Anybody Else

I hate my father soo sooo much. He just doesn't understand that he is not the only person in the world who is capable of making a decision. I am almost 19 years old and on my way to college. He still treats my like I'm 5. He wants me to stay in his house while I am in college and do exactly as he says. I don't have a life because of him. I just have to go to school and come back home. He cares more about what people think than about what I want. He has no regard for my feelings. He thinks he owns me. I am so sick of him. I do not care about him at all because I am fed up. When I think of all the times in my life that he has kept me from doing something I really really wanted to do, I hate him even more. I have never been on a date. I've never even had a boyfriend. I have never gone anywhere with a friend. Sometimes, I just want to punch him in the face. I get that I am barely an adult but I am not an idiot or a child. I am a grown woman who needs to be able to make her own decision. I want my freedom from his tyranny. I know that other people might have bigger problems with their father that involve physical abuse but I do feel like this is abuse in a way--psychological abuse. I feel like a prisoner. I don't know how to get out. He controls every aspect of my life. He even tells me what I'm supposed to think and believe! I have no voice. I know that the obvious solution would be to just leave because now I legally can but I have no way to support myself. I do not have a job (I'm not allowed to have one) or any savings. And if I leave, I will be all alone. 
alenawalker alenawalker
1 Response May 16, 2012

That's my problem as well..back in college I was so confident that after graduating I'll have a wonderful career. But my dad, being the control freak he is, started planting a seed of doubt and confusion in my head. He made me work for his company, and kept telling me that without him, I would be nothing. That son of a ***** taught me nothing but to doubt myself.