My Life Turned Into A Total Mess.

My dad and I have never gotten along well since he started drinking. Which was in 2008 or 2009. On the other hand, my mother and I are like best friends. I love her to death. I used to love my dad but he has hit me and yelled at me and he never treats me how I should be treated. He calls me horrible names and never lets me explain things. My mom finally took this to Children and Youth Services. For a week or two, everything was the same, then they came. CAYS came to my house and talked to me. They acted as if I were a spoiled brat, and that's when everything in my life got worse. I started cutting a lot. I am depressed and my grades have gone to A's/B's down to C's/D's. I'm failing in math already and I am only in the second week of 8th grade. I have cut myself since I was 11. I'm now 13 turning 14 in a few weeks but my cutting has never been this bad. No one other than 2 people (my best friends) know about this. I don't want anyone to know. That's why I'm here. I need to get this out. I have recently had thoughts of suicide and running away. Neither of which I'm capable of doing. I just need someone to talk to me. Show me I'm not alone... I just need someone to give me a little guidance. Anyone out there? :/
HannahFeelsAlone HannahFeelsAlone
13-15
Sep 5, 2012