There's Nobody Here, And No One To Find You.

I cannot be around my father. He is the most negative, hurtful, uncaring person. He admitted that he hated everybody. Then why stay? You make us sick. You give me anxiety and you made me consider killing myself. You've hurt my family countless times and never even apologized for it. You blame me, FOR EVERYTHING! You can't accept your own mistakes so you blame me. I failed myself. I'm the idiot. It's my fault for being stupid. It's my fault you can't pay the bills. It's my fault. Why? You b*stard! Nobody likes you. Everyone gets the vibe that you hate them when they meet you. Nobody wants to be around you, because you poision their hearts and minds with darkness and rage. You feed off of others' negativity, because you love it. You love starting fights and talking to people like they're stupid. Like you're smarter. Ha. You sh*thead. People at church are afraid to approach you, and I can only sympathize with them. My mother tries to make you happy, and you spit on her happiness. Then, when she doesn't want to talk to you, you get mad. Why the **** do you think she doesn't want to have anything to do with you?! I can't stand you! You ruin everybody's lives that you touch! You drink alcohol to compensate for your lack of f*cking humanity! Like the liquid is better than caring family and friends! That's okay. I don't give a sh*t now. When your time comes and you really need a family or a good friend, you'll be all alone, in the dark. And when you reach for me and my family, I'll slap your hand away, and see how you like it. I love you Dad... but I can't be around you. I won't let you drag me down with you. I can't. I'm sorry.

YOU did this yourself. And it's time you face the consequences for it.
duClo duClo
18-21, T
1 Response Sep 12, 2012

I'm sorry you've had to go through all that, it must have been horrible. I can relate to a lot of what you talked about, and I was wondering if we could connect over email and perhaps share some thoughts and experiences. I would really appreciate it, and I think venting about it could be good for both of us.