I Wonder If..

I ever cross his mind. If he ever feels like **** for leaving his mother and his daughter. I wish I could find him and tell him that I ******* hate him. I don't understand why someone would act like a father for eleven years and then one day, out of the blue just say **** you I never want to see you again and try to send me away. He tried to send me to military school. Well he didn't have custody of me so he couldnt but really? At that point in my life I haven't even done anything yet I was eleven and he wanted me away? What the ****. About a year later I was hospitilized and now I'm crazy, apparently and I'm not allowed to see my little brother cause I may have hurt him. How could anyone, espically my supposed family think I would hurt a baby? He was only about a year old at the time How the **** could someone think that of me? I'm now 18 so I haven't spoken to him in 7 years. I wonder since its been so long if he would or just pretend like he doesn't know me since I've never really existed to him.
xkrissex xkrissex
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 18, 2012

I'm sorry you've had to go through all that, it must have been horrible. I can relate to a lot of what you talked about, and I was wondering if we could connect over email and perhaps share some thoughts and experiences. I would really appreciate it, and I think venting about it could be good for both of us.