I Hate Hating A Dead Guy

I hate that I still loathe my father deeply. I just wish I could forgive him, but I can't. I need to know why I wasn't important enough to keep living, or to give up drinking.

I needed him. My brother needed him. He stole my innocence and my brother's happiness. I can never forgive him.

I just wish I knew a way to let go of the resentment I feel towards him. It's not fair to hate a dead guy, I won't ever get my answers. Why can't I just let it go?
Etceteras Etceteras
18-21, F
Jan 6, 2013