I Can't Take It Anymore

Me and my dad used to be close. He would always kiss me goodnight and tell me how much he loved me. It has been years since he has done that. Now he completely ignores me. I try to make an effort and talk to him but he tells me to get the hell away. He isn't like this with my other sibling or my mom it's just with me. I don't know what I have done to deserve his disrespect. I'm a good kid and I never get into trouble like my other siblings do. It's gotten to the point where he hits me and tells me I'm a worthless price of garbage. I dread going home and when I am at home I hide from him because whenever he sees me he comes up with all kinds of insults. I see him hug my sister and take her out to football games but whenever I ask him if I can come along he just tells me no. I don't know what is wrong with him because he is nice to others and he doesn't drink or anything like that. He complains how I'm expensive because I have several serious medical problems and I have to go to the hospital a lot. I don't understand how he can hate me because I'm sick. Whenever I tell my mom about this she says that he loves me but the thing is that he only is nasty to me when my mom isn't there. He has caused inguries to me which is not a good thing because I'm ill. I'm scared to tell people because everyone likes him and no one will believe me. I am so lonely and I hate having to hide in my closet every time he is around. The thing that hurts the most is that he tells me that I will have no future because I'm ill. I really want a relationship with him but I don't think that will be possible. I can't take it anymore.
Soccerluvr159 Soccerluvr159
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 10, 2013

What your dad does is disgusting. If no one believes you then atleast try to record what he says (without him seeing ofcourse) and show your mom or something. You cant go on like this. No one can. Goodluck though and take care of yourself