Things Aren' T What They Used To Be

i used to love my dad. in my eyes he was the most important person in my life. now, I'll do anything to get away from him.

first of all, he's so religious. I don't mind the fact that he's very into Christianity, but he's always pushing it on me. no matter what he gets into these long speeches about how great jesus is and how I have to be good. he expects me to be a saint, but I'm just a teenage girl. once we were praying(which is something I don't want to do) he took my phone just because I had it in my hand. I wasn't even using it.

also he lies. my mom and I have been planning my 15th since like forever and he always says we're gonna do these great things but now he acts like he doesn't care. my 15th mean the world to me and he doesn't care. Im tired of him and his stupid lies about how we were going to do this and that. it's like he purposely gets my hopes up just so he can disappoint

also when I was little, he would threaten to woo me with his belt when I misbehaved. he justifies this by saying his parents would do that when he lived in El Salvador. lfor with my dad is hell. I hate him so much I'm crying and I can hardly see the keys on my keyboard.
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2 Responses Jan 12, 2013

I know how it feels... to be verbally abused by a father. I grew up with that, first making excuses for him and still looking up to him thinking that he's the most amazing father in the world. As time went on what I thought was normal became traumatized events that I couldn't forget no matter how much I wanted to suppress those memories. Now, I'm terrified of him. Every time he's home all I want to do is run away and hide from him. I can't get out of the house because I don't have a job, plus I'm still in college and I don't own a car.

I've been seeing a counselor for the past two to three months. I can't say that it solves my problems but what it does is it helps me cope with the stress. Maybe you should see one or someone that is certified in that field. Good luck.

You are going to grow older, you can move out of your house; have your own life. Verbal abuse is just as bad as physical abuse if not worse because it's so hard to do anything about it. All you can do is look towards the future. Hope you get better