My Father Is Sick

He gives me a false sense of security. I gotta go. I can not live like this. I may have to find a shelter or something. I can not continue to live like this. I need to be free. I got to go. I have to put college off, but I gotta leave this environment. This environment is about lies. My father is a complete, and compulsive liar. It is all false sense of security. I have to find a job that is going to pay decent money in the future. I got to move, and move as soon as possible. I got to leave and never look back, never regret anything. I have to accept respoonsibility, that I am the reason that I am in this situation. I am sorry, but my father will never control me, ever again. He will not tell what to do or say, or how to act anymore. I am getting sick of games.

chicago54 chicago54
22-25, M
2 Responses Feb 25, 2010

I also dislike my dad, and he's done some things to annoy me, but in all honesty, I can't really complain because compared to some dads, he's not that bad (i.e. he's not an alcoholic, hasn't abandoned us, etc.).

I feel in a way like I'd like to leave home, too. Unfortunately, I don't currently have a job and am not too well established, so leaving isn't the best option for me now. Like you, I want to get a job that pays decent money (and perhaps maybe a little more, too). I want a job in a steady field - like medicine. I'm leaning toward either a pharmacist or nurse. Unfortunately, the closest college to me doesn't have a prepharmacy course (just Pharmacy Technician), and the other school that does is rather far away. My life is in a bit of a bind now. Anyway, I wish the best of luck to you.