Can't Be the Type of Friend...

I hate my ex best friend for telling me she couldn't be the type of friend I wanted.( A friend with compassion, understanding, forgiveness, and love?)

I have been hospitalized over 10 times in the last 7 years. I am Bi-polar. My ex best friend never once visited me while I had an episode. We had been through a lot in the past. We did a lot of partying and such. I was there when she cheated on her boyfriend and later broke up with the same guy. I visited her when she was lonely in another state. I comforted her in her times of sadness and needing of a shoulder to cry on. Then one day I took her to lunch and confronted her of my saddened feelings on why she never visited me in my times of need. I always knew she was selfish, self conceited, and self absorbed. But I never knew how inconsiderate and unfeeling she truly was. It was during this luncheon she told me that she felt I was looking for attention from her and others, and that's why I tried suicide attempts over and over again. And that She had no time for this and no energy to put into it because she was just getting into a relationship. Her exact words were..."I feel that you are only trying to gain attention again like you got attention back in high school. I have no time and energy for that. I cannot be the type of friend you want me to be!"

Was I really asking for too much in a friendship? A little compassion? A little understanding? A little patience? Or even a little bit of love? Now, I ask, was she really ever a friend this ex friend of mine?


o0cherriepie0o o0cherriepie0o
31-35, F
1 Response Aug 8, 2007

in my opinion. NO!!! i have an ex friend who i had for 35 years and she would often phone me and tell me that i wasn't being the friend she needed!! when i was always there for her and continued to be that person. i think it was the best for you and me that we lost those "so called friends"....