I Hate Him, And Yet I Still Love Him.
He was my best friend, the greatest person I ever dated...I loved him so much...but he never loved me. We'd talk about me moving in with him...getting married, him visiting me. But now it just hurts me so much to know he lied to me, to know he lied about being in love with me..it hurts for him to call me beautiful...it hurts so much...I want to never see him again or think about him, but it's hard..I begged him, I did everything trying to get him to reconsider his feelings for me...I could barely breath from crying so much. Even right now I'm crying and shaking, wishing he was still with me...wishing he still loved me...I need him..but I can't ever have him..