I Let Him Make Me Look Like A Fool.

I broke up with him a month ago, because our long term relationship had soured and he was becoming controlling, and verbally abusive. All my friends kept telling me that they hated seeing the way he put me down all the time, publicly. Nevertheless I was still deeply in love with him. I feel that I was emotionally dependant on him: I began to lose my self worth, and no matter how much attention I got from others, I only felt beautiful when he told me I was. He could make me feel worthless in just a second. I knew that I was in a horrible place, so I decided to break it off. Naturally, he broke down, started professing his love, how much I mean to him, how sorry he is for treating me that way, how he knows he'll change. This has continued for a month, and has been very hard for me. I slept with him twice, both times were wonderful but each time I lost even more of my self-respect. Finally he has been trying to convince me that he loves me still, that he only has eyes for me- but I found out from a friend that he has been with a couple of other girls that he's met since. I can't believe how stupid I've been. I've let him make me feel weak, and cheap and it's only now that I realise the full crapiness of our relationship! He is a lying manipulator, and I can't wait to start my new life. I can't wait to experience new things, and to rediscover myself as an individual. I want to feel proud to be me again. It feels like I've been hidden away for too long!
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2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

Same here..heartbroken but so excited for my new.beginning..focusing on me..

It's a good thing you left him, he doesn't deserve a wonderful person like you! You know, men sometimes use, "LOVE" as a way to control our move! I'm glad you wised up and left him....when the time is right, you will meet someone else who loves you inside and out...and not just for what you can do between the sheets! Keep your head up.....your new beginning is ahead... :)

thanks for the support! :)

You're welcome! If you ever need to talk....about anything, just send me a message! :)