I Wish He Was Dead
He's totally ruined my life in many ways I dont have enough space to write them all down. Im not the same person I was he abused me physically. mentally, emotionally and now hes doing it to our kids (not physical tho - I think) He told me he didn't like the way I looked while we were on our honeymoon. I was a size 8. Never held my hand on our honeymoon because he said he didnt really fancy me much sometimes hed tell me he loved me then the next day he told me he didnt there are no words to describe him- hes not even an animal - hes far far worse. We lasted 9 years but only because we had 2 kids which made him love me a little bit although he never found me attractive - he was telling me all my faults about my face and figure for 9 years. He made me feel ugly. And yet soon after we split I went out with one fairly good looking guy who said I was too attractive for him and dumped me!!!!!!! he said I could have anyone I wanted!!!!! I wanted him. Its been like this - Im either not good looking enough or too good looking. I dont bother with men anymore I find them weird and complicated.