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My So Called Love Story

i remember, how i propose to her just 10 days before her marriage.... she told me i am going to get married in 10 days, why you doing it now.....? i told her i just want these 10 days of your life.....it will be enough for me......i know it would be tough for you but it's only 10 days......i am doing this because i don't want to regret that i have not told you about my feelings for you.......i told her you don’t have to say ‘i love you’ too. She did not say anything she told me call her that night and then she left.........!!!

i was confused......... but still called her and she told me she would be coming to meet me at my university....... she even asked me what colour dress she should wear......i told her to wear pink color....... i took it as a yes for my proposal.........i was so happy about the fact that she is coming to meet me the next day. i couldn't sleep that night......we have spent an hour at that place i consider it as the best day of my life...........



after that we were on the phone for rest of 9 days......we couldn't manage to meet again because both of us were busy. i wanted to meet her but as she have to prepared for her marriage i did not forced her..........we were on phone like 36 hours in 10 days........we were like mad we just wanted to spend time with each other..........but time came when we have to separate..........i told her i would leave this job as she was my colleague and i would change my phone number and would not disturb her life............but she said that she didn’t want to lose contact with me... she got so upset that i had to convince her that i would not leave job and i would stay in touch .........

i think this was the worst decision i have ever made after that all the pain started......she had promised me to call after 15 days of her marriage.............so i was waiting for those 15 days to get pass, i was so desperate to talk to her.........that i kept looking at my mobile phone after every 5 minutes.........

but she didn’t call me even after 19 days, i was exhausted by waiting. finally i decided to meet her at my job after her holidays........i talked to her and asked why didn’t you call me when you have promise me that you would........she simply said,’ i could not manage to call you.....’

she was so rude........and i was so angry but i controlled myself..........i don’t know what were her thoughts but after this confrontation she started calling me everyday.........we were on phone every day for 3 hours for next 6 months.......we rarely get chance to meet........but as time passed her behaviour changed too and in between i changed my job...... i loved her and i was getting affected by not being with her.... But she never understood that i don't talk with my friends on phone for 3 hours everyday.........she never cared that i was going through so much pain just because she wanted me her life.........!!!!

everyday i tried to find her love for me....... in small things she said to me i tried to find little traces of care for me........once she said, "you are my genius" and once she told me that i hate you it was just friendly conversation i replied you never told me i love you so i hate you not accepted.....she replied is it necessary to say i love you? Sometime you have to understand the reality of world.........

after 3 months of her marriage i proposed her again with 5 roses.......i bent on my knees and with each rose i have said one sentence......on that day i have seen love for me in her eyes......and she told me this is the best moment of my life....no one has done something like this for me........i am so happy you can't imagine........it's something i will never forget in my life.......



but i could feel the pain increasing every day....she used to forget important things about me......she would ask me to meet and then keep me waiting.....and wait lasted for ever..........once after almost 3 months we managed to meet at library........but it became biggest disaster of my life........i was in the bus with lots of feeling of love... but she called me and said she had an important work to do........and that important work was to buy a perfume for her husband....so she was going to buy the perfume first she didn’t even said sorry ........she could have asked me politely that this is important if i don't bring perfume he would argue with me and we will have fight......but instead she just behaved so carelessly and she behaved like it's my mistake.....and i felt like how is it possible..how could perfumes are more important than someone’s feeling......i told her to go and l waited for her to finish her work and come back..........she almost took one and half hour to comeback......during that time i felt like 100 snakes biting me each and every moment......i almost cried.......i couldn't believe that is the girl who asked me to stay in her life.

this incident made me think about our relationship and why i was staying in her life ?......after almost one and half hour she came to the library the place we have decided to meet but it gone close.......i was so angry but what to do ? i just told her you go now i will go to my home.......and when i said this i was like nearly cried, but she just went away without saying anything.......

this incident made me realized that this is not the girl whom i loved ....this not the girl who cared for me ..........this is not the girl who told me to stay in her life......how could anyone be so rude?.......day by day she started behaving like i was nothing for her........and i couldn't leave her because my feeling got out of control everyday because we still were talking for three hours daily.....

i was in a situation where i was scared to leave her but i was not happy being with her...... she was keep telling me i want to be in touch with you...don't leave me.......every time i talked about leaving her .....She got so upset and i couldn't understand what she wanted from me? Sometime she behaves like i mean nothing for her.....it made me confused all the time.......but still i wasn't in the situation to leave her.......

then one day she told me that she was pregnant with her husband's child and now she would not be able to talk with me like before......i told her that it is okay and she can call me whenever she wants.....i was hopeful she would talk to me now and then

but she did not call me for next 4 months.....i was waiting for her call every day.......i was so concerned about her situation i didn’t try to contact her but after 4 months i lost control on myself and i went to her job place....

i literally felt like someone used and have thrown me............... i told her to call me .............i just needed an answer about why she told me to stay in her life if she wanted to forget me like this ? i was broken by her answers, she told me there was never a commitment between us and she never signed an agreement with me about staying in my life. this was the most worst answer i have ever heard...i could not believe.............

.my anger started going out of control and she told me she never loved me and she was talking to me just as a friend, but how can anyone talk to somebody daily for 3 hours for 6 months just as a friend.....? i told her she just wanted to use me to her need and when its done throw me out of her life like i was never there!!!......

When i asked her about why she has played with my feelings? and she told me she never wanted to talk with me......she was talking to me just because i could feel better......she said that now she wants to go with her life and wanted me to move on as well and love another girl. I was amazed and reminded her it was she who asked me to stay in her life after her marriage ........then she said me there was no commitment between us.....i was comfortable with you at that time.....but now i am not.......

She said i never told you that i love you. There was nothing else to talk about so i have to say good bye to her........she was crying and i had to make it a happy ending......



i was in shock and thinking " how could a person do such a thing? "..........she was married and wanted to talk with me.......she was talking with me every day .......even just 2 hours before of her marriage she was on phone with me..........i never done anything wrong which can hurt her........i was always making her laugh even when i didn’t feel like talking to her........i was always behind her in all the situations......always helped her financially, finding jobs,......when she was not feeling well i was the first person to give her medicines........because i knew she loved me.........! but i was wrong, and now it was the end of the road and i could feel my heart broken in pieces......i can not believe the person you once love can drive you to this limit that when we remember them we feel hate and intense hate for them.....maybe this has made me to write this story in ‘i hate my ex group’.
alexandersagar alexandersagar 22-25, M 4 Responses May 11, 2012

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Alex, my dear, I am so very sorry for the pain this love caused you. I know how much it hurts. It was not a so called love story on your part because your love was real. I won't say why she did this, although I think I know why, but it is the cruelest thing when people play games with our heart. It can take a very long time to heal. I know you feel resentment, and that is only natural, but in your own time, try and let it go. It will only harm you and not her. I pray that one day, you will have the love you so desire, with someone who loves and cares for you as much as you do for her.

As your new friend, know that I am here for you too, as I am for all my friends. Hugs to you.

ok, dont panic....yr bhabhi said to comment nicely....thats why/....

nw my version of comment......itani lambi story ???? sale, kutte, 4 din ki love story mein 400 pages likh dalega ?? abhi kya isaki kitab banani hai ??

ok, wtever, screw yr ex......get drunk.....smoke....and she will disappear like ""dhua'''

and always trust me....i will always there when u will need a company to drink ( assuming that u will pay the bills )

dont write depressing stories again.........idiot !

oh........my sweet heart....hugssssssssssssssssss...............it happens dear....its just a phase in yr life....and soon u will get rid of it...and one day u will forget even yr ex and yr life will blossom with true love....like a ever lasting fregrance.....u r always in my prayer........love u....hugssssss.

if u ever want to talk, i m always here.......take care!

everything happens for a reason................i am happy you are out of it!!!!!! you deserve something way better than anybody else i know....so don't fret, it will be all good in future.........hugggggggssssssssssss!!!!

mwah...........u r so sexi........

koi sharm nahin hain na....!!!

janm se hi besharam ..........