No Love

I have never had a close relationship with my mum mainly because she was never there for me when I was growing up not by her own choice but because she was ill so I had nannies and they all left or got fired my dad was never there but he tried because he travelled alot for his job. I have never felt loved by any of them one day when I was 11 I asked my mum if she loved me she said yes but said she preferred my sisters to me. I have never felt like I fit into my family because I am the second child I have one older sister and one younger sister so it seems their lifes overshadowed mine. When I was 12 I saw my father get kidnapped and it made me feel like I was going to loose the only person who truely loved me. I live with my mum now and I am 16 lately everything my family does seems to annoy me and I cant help but hate them we are going through a rough time now financially which makes everyone stressed. The only time we have a conversation is when my mum wants something and when she tries to get involved in my life I dont take her seriously. Its at a point where I cant wait to leave I dont want to hate them because in the future I want my kids to know their cousins and grandparents.
chichiaa chichiaa
18-21
Dec 8, 2012