Trying To Move On And Forget

I was in my late twenties and had a stable childhood with happy times and a strong family. Easter weekend three years ago, I went home for the long weekend and went to a yoga class in my hometown. When I came home I found my mom sitting on her bed staring at the cordless phone in her hand. She looked in shock and very pale. She said a man just called who caught my Dad cheating with his wife. I will never forget that moment.
My parents have decided to stay together and work on things. I accept this decision and try to maintain a healthy relationship with my father. Its very hard.
I find lately it is affecting my relationship with guys I date. I have a lot of anxiety, think they are cheating and assume the worst. I need advice on self help. I never had anxiety and lack of trust before this happened. I keep thinking that when he was cheating on my Mom he was disregarding his relationship with my whole family and with me.
Does anyone have advice on anxiety books, hobbies or ways to keep my mind off things. I have never turned to a counsellor or a friend with my issues, and I dont know if I could.
I just wanted to meet people who have been through this and got through it.

I am currently single and dont know how I will ever trust someone. I just want to be myself again.

HopeJoyLovePeace HopeJoyLovePeace
26-30, F
1 Response Sep 6, 2012

pretty much going through the same phase. Was not always close to my father but always tried to respect him. Now when I m 25 one day I get to know that he goes and touches another women. Never expected this from him. m still not coming to terms with this.
He is not a bad person but this incident has surely spoiled his image in my mind. Dont know whther ill ever be able to come out of this.